lost in reflection

firasat. instinct.
instinct. firasat.
instinct, in psychology means
a behavior that is genetically
programmed into an entire species
thus, the behavior is not the result of learning
and can be seen across members of a species
i'm so lost in reflection today
it's been raining 3 days in row
mostly in the mornings
the first 2 days, my soul sang songs of joy
thunderous thunder, raging rain and terrible traffic
could not for a second contradict my mood
yet the 3rd day, today
i felt the sudden urge to cry
something happened
between 5 pm and 9.30 pm
don't know what
not even now while writing this
haven't got a damn clue
yet i know, something happened
between 5 pm and 9.30 pm
everywhere, nowhere, somewhere
something happened, today, 19.02.08
i'm so lost in reflection today
instinct, according to wikipedia means
the inherent disposition of a living organism
towards a particular behavior
instincts are unlearned
damn right they aren't
don't even know why i keep having 'em
those instincts
i'm so lost in reflection today
what the hell happened?
wish i could get an answer for once
not just get instincts
felt like i've lost someone
or something
i'm so lost in reflection today
THE ONLY ONE. MY ALPHA.
quit sitting around n answer me!
YOU who stands higher than the rest
tell me, how do i know?
when can i know?
i'm like a little wolf
sitting in the snow
where are YOU?
i'm so lost in reflection today
instincts, to me, for years and years
have been the pre-programmed feelings
that so unceremoniously and unconciously
emerge without prior notice
i always have them
but it always takes a long time
to figure them out!
i'm so lost in reflection today
i kinda suspect what this is all about
if you're angry, i'm sorry
didn't mean to hurt you
it's just that if truth be told
it will take us a step closer
to undefined bliss that we both long for
hope you don't change your mind
i'm lost in reflection today
the grace of the world, be on my side everywhere nowhere somewhere 19 feb 08