yeah.. i know.. it's been quite a while since i last blogged.. don't know why, i haven't felt like writing.. words were swimming in my head, but i had no desire to write them..
... obama victory moment came and went.. i was inspired.. wanted to write about that but didn't..
... the stupid pornography law was finally approved and put into effect.. i was fuming.. wanted to write about that but didn't..
... amrozi and his bali bomber friends were finally dead.. i was happy.. wanted to write about that but didn't..
.. i successfully beat microsoft, found the SATA driver, recreated a bootable windows xp installation CD with SATA driver on it, then killed the slow and resource-hungry windows vista and replaced it with a pirated copy of windows xp again.. i was triumphant as i would allow no one to tell me what i can or cannot do on my computer, including microsoft.. wanted to write about that but didn't..
it's like the shadows of this life matter not anymore.. i've been distracted.. totally out of focus.. while trying to unite a natural or personal affection to ‘reason and reflection’, i've been distracted.. while trying to create a stable, satisfying feminine position that inextricably connected wishes and reality, i've been totally out of focus..
so moments of this life came and went.. i was inspired, fuming, happy, triumphant.. at times i was also sad, uncertain, frustrated and suicidal.. yet i didn't write any of it.. instead, i've spent most of my time lately quietly waiting for the promised enriching twist that you'd supposedly get when you pray.. quietly waiting for the predicted transformation.. quietly waiting for those magic words along with a few others, even if they are spoken so softly as if they are almost fading out from one’s voice.. i would've heard them anyway.. yet silence falls.. as always..
i still remain devoted and unchanged to upholding the sanctity of the dreams.. there were moments when i almost let thoughts slipped out of my lips.. yet i successfully remain silent.. words.. unspoken.. unwritten.. just silence.. quietly waiting.. i was hoping today would be different.. i was hoping today would be the end and the beginning.. but guess not.. so here i am, still distracted and still waiting in silence.. are you confused? so am i..
nah gw aja bingung, gimana elo ya??? viva obama!!! lho?
... obama victory moment came and went.. i was inspired.. wanted to write about that but didn't..
... the stupid pornography law was finally approved and put into effect.. i was fuming.. wanted to write about that but didn't..
... amrozi and his bali bomber friends were finally dead.. i was happy.. wanted to write about that but didn't..
.. i successfully beat microsoft, found the SATA driver, recreated a bootable windows xp installation CD with SATA driver on it, then killed the slow and resource-hungry windows vista and replaced it with a pirated copy of windows xp again.. i was triumphant as i would allow no one to tell me what i can or cannot do on my computer, including microsoft.. wanted to write about that but didn't..
it's like the shadows of this life matter not anymore.. i've been distracted.. totally out of focus.. while trying to unite a natural or personal affection to ‘reason and reflection’, i've been distracted.. while trying to create a stable, satisfying feminine position that inextricably connected wishes and reality, i've been totally out of focus..
so moments of this life came and went.. i was inspired, fuming, happy, triumphant.. at times i was also sad, uncertain, frustrated and suicidal.. yet i didn't write any of it.. instead, i've spent most of my time lately quietly waiting for the promised enriching twist that you'd supposedly get when you pray.. quietly waiting for the predicted transformation.. quietly waiting for those magic words along with a few others, even if they are spoken so softly as if they are almost fading out from one’s voice.. i would've heard them anyway.. yet silence falls.. as always..
i still remain devoted and unchanged to upholding the sanctity of the dreams.. there were moments when i almost let thoughts slipped out of my lips.. yet i successfully remain silent.. words.. unspoken.. unwritten.. just silence.. quietly waiting.. i was hoping today would be different.. i was hoping today would be the end and the beginning.. but guess not.. so here i am, still distracted and still waiting in silence.. are you confused? so am i..
nah gw aja bingung, gimana elo ya??? viva obama!!! lho?
2 comments:
"..instead, i've spent most of my time lately quietly waiting for the promised enriching twist that you'd supposedly get when you pray ".
* bitter laugh *.
Me too *sigh*. Kata orang,kalo kita berdoa,juga harus sabar sampe' itu dikabulin. But what if, waiting is all you've been doing and slowly you feel like you're just a character playing in a ridiculous comedic act, and you don't even know about it ?.
* ah,kok terkesan curcol ( curhat-colongan ) ya ?. haha *.
hahaha.. unee, inget.. org sabar itu pasti.. keseeeellll.. hahaha salah ya?
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